Message to a Survivor
I believe in myself and the power of greatness that brought me to life.
Message of Healing
Healing looks like realizing what I am experiencing was deliberate vile premeditated and positioned to an annihilate me. Healing to me means seeing that the life that I've been given, by power that I am yet to understand fully, loved me enough to give me the use of these capabilities, that I do not take for granted and I use to the fullest. I eat well - foods that are good for me. My hygiene is immaculate and I take great care in loving myself, my teeth, and my skin, and my eyes, while going to my routine health practitioners which I always have on a routine regular basis. Healing to me means that my outlook, my surroundings my home is taken care of immaculately, meticulously, and it is the paradise that I would like to live in; I make it so. Healing to me is taking responsibility for myself. While I am looking for others to help me and advocate for me, which I found absolutely none so far, I still don't stop knowing that it's up to me if any change is going to be, even if it's been five years living in total isolation. Healing to me is making sure that the things that I am responsible for I stay on top of, and don't make these things that part that is unhealthy, giving more weight to my abuse. Healing to me doing the things that I enjoy doing; may they be traveling, even though I travel alone and I have to give an attorney's number since I have nobody "in case of emergency" to put down, having been totally alienated. Healing to me is realizing that despite the seeing the whole world is against me, I myself can be for myself with any one of those people who have taken up arms against me. Healing to me is just being my radiant beautiful self each and every day, everywhere I go despite knowing that my abuser has soiled every connection, every connectivity, and every potentially possibility that lies before me.
I have been electronically abused for the past 5 years relentlessly, despite my reporting being cyber bullied, stalked, gang bullied, trolled, physically and sexually abused and harassed to all police agencies: the police department, precinct, the District Attorney's Office, and the general attorney's office. I completed a FBI form, contacted my legislators, senators, congress persons ({~Office Rep Name~} rudely said to me, what do you want us to do), domestic violence hotlines, {~City Services~}, I was denied services at the {~Agency~}, and left without help form the crime victims board. I remain alienating and ostracizing, living totally isolation in my home for the last five years, after having a full and fulfilling rich life. I know who my abuser is. There's no part of my electronic communication that has not been infiltrated and soiled. I'm up to my fifth late model iPhone, I just bought a new MacBook Pro, and a second Apple Watch, all in an effort to define and detach myself from being hacked. Everything about all of these devices remain the same and so are my abuser's ability to hack my communications and my connectivity, fouling potential relationships, leaving me psychologically imprisoned in a coffin-like deafened state where death is the only out. I'm not suicidal. I'm healthier than most thank God. Please send help. I don't know how you'll get help from this notice but someway somehow I wish you would help me. Cyber abuse is a terrorist act and federal charges must be brought for the degree of abuse I've experienced and the number of people and positions of these people who set up on me and set on me and set me up to be pummeled and harassed.
